The weekend: ah work, a sweet reunion, anticipation and a revelation that is making me go, "Wha?"
I'm slowly adjusting to working the night shift 3 days a week. I like the job even for the chaos that happens when the nurses all come down at once for break, the phone is ringing for patient orders and the one other person working is on break... that's beside the point. I never thought I would ever work nights and I dreaded the 20 minute drive back home at 3 am but there is a calm about the city that time of night, yet I also feel the energy of the Holy Spirit hovering in the hours of predawn, like He's pulsing to reign in the night where darkness usually reigns, and yet is also preparing the new mercies and joy of the morning for the majority of the world that is actually sleeping. Sweet moments.
Speaking of sweet. My dear aunt flew into my city to see her brother who was in the hospital. The family had been called in to say goodbyes. I haven't seen her in almost two years, but this dear woman was the fill in grandma when I was born prematurely, and I can now understand is also a spiritual mother. We caught up and while I was there found out that her brother who they were expecting to die, might possibly go home later this week.
I am anticipating what February holds. It's a leap year and sitting in church yesterday, God spoke to my heart about going after a specific area in my life with Him in February. It's going to be an adventure for sure. I'm sure I'll post something about it after, but for now I'm letting it settle privately in my own heart.
And as far as the revelation, yesterday was sanctity of life Sunday. We prayed in church, like we do every Sunday for the blessing of the many babies and children in our church and we also prayed that there would be culture and spirit of Life in our church. I was moved as we prayed and the little one in the row in front of me kept staring at me. God knew these little ones before they were ever formed as Psalm 139 says. Then later in the day I was chatting with my mom and she told me something I never knew before. I was conceived while she was on the pill. This revelation about knocked me over. While, my parents weren't expecting me to come around, God had these plans so that I would be born at that specific time. It was one of those "wow" moments where I knew in a deeper way that God formed me and purposed me and He made no mistakes and I was no "accident." This also combined with sadness as I also found out that my mom had 4 miscarriages before my brother and I came along. I couldn't help thinking "what if?" about those four lives.
Ah...the life of seeking after the heart of God. Rich and full.
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