Need vs Want

Everyone wants to be needed, right?

But what if what we really want is to just be wanted? Confused? So was I.

I believed that all I was worth to people was being useful. I needed to be needed. What I wanted was inconsequential. Being known for who I was and enjoyed was something I could not believe others would see me.

When someone pointed out that it was hard to fight for our friendship because I made it too easy, that I needed their approval and couldn't really know and enjoy them. I couldn't really love them. I had put conditions on love. For loving myself, for loving others.

My world was turned upside down. I was looking at relationships with people to meet my needs, while believing that I was doing it for them. It looked good, but was selfish.

I praise God that He knocked me out of this delusion. God does not need me. He wants me. He chose me. Because He needs nothing from me, His love is unconditional. If I live with my needs met in Jesus, I am free to love others.