Consecrated.

Tears flow.  Words I don't even understand with my mind flow from my lips as my spirit cries out to the deep of My Lord.

I long, I desire to go to the mountain.

And the prophetic words, are more than words, they are like a trumpet to my soul:

Come, come away!  Consecrate yourself unto Me.  In Me, find your desire and your hope, the fulfillment of everything you were created for.

And I am still reeling!

Tithing my time for prayer and worship= 2.5 hours a day. - Sarah Sun Kim

Everything Jesus does, He does as a servant. It is an act of humility. The only way Jesus can be king is when we let Him be our servant. -Stuart Greaves

The revelation of Jesus as Judge is a message of dignity, freedom and forgiveness. Trust Jesus with your case. He will never stop fighting for you. You can forget because Jesus never will.- Shelley Hundley

Night and day prayer is the only fitting response to the infinitely great God and His Son who is infinitely worthy. 24/7 prayer isn't a necessity. It is a constraint! - Allen Hood

I fast because God is so in love with me and I am painfully unaware. - Shelley Hundley

Don't sit on the sidelines watching others know and love Jesus. - Dwayne Roberts

If you love Me, deny yourself daily, pick up your cross and follow Me. The Bridegroom is the one who invites you into this. Love Himself who humbled Himself, is calling you to deny the things that get in the way of being with Jesus. - Misty Edward

Jesus is the Davidic king, establishing his throne forever, but He is so much more. He is divine. Lord is more than just the idea of a master. He is YAHWEH!. They had not just crucified messiah, they had crucified the LORD. - Steven Venable

The praying church is a singing church. The Bride of Christ will be known as a singing bride who sings back to Jesus.- Brian Kim

The womb is God's art studio. God wrote my novel and God does not write boring books - Lou Engle

When my mind, body and emotions want immorality and I say "no" because I love Jesus, He takes that personally. It moves Him. - Mike Bickle

The most transforming, exhilarating, motivating reality in the kingdom is Jesus Himself. -MB

One Word (or two words) from Onething

I was expectant.  I believed that God was going to do something.  Six months in, while God had done some work.  I knew that I had hidden in invisibility and it hindered me knowing that I was Beloved.  Even as I wrote my wrap up post for OneWord 2011 I could tell there was still something in me believing: I don't think I really know what being Beloved is.

And the last few days of 2011, Jesus overwhelmed me.  Among thousands of others at Onething2011, I encountered Jesus.  I know He loves me in a whole new way.  Psalm 139 being the powerful words my heart needed to hear.

I had the word dream on my mind for 2012 before I left for Kansas City.  To dream with Jesus about going to the darkest places and bringing the kingdom.  Interceding and talking about the creative ways that Yahweh wants to bring redemption.  Dream is still on my heart and I'm so ready to dream with Him.   But on the trip back, I had this fire in my chest and my belly. There were fifty people around me on the bus but all I could think about was Jesus.  I want the fire of my love for Jesus to grow, so my second word for 2012 is burn.

Ooo...I am so pumped for 2012!

What the Hell is Everyone Running From?

Busy

A four letter word

So often worn as a badge of honor.  "Look at all that I am doing.   You're only doing that much?  You should pick it up, weakling."


We kill ourselves and then cry out when we are burned out with no peace in our hearts. We don't like being so crazy but we just can't stop.  So I have to ask the question?

What the hell is everyone running from?

Ourselves.  Jesus.

When we stop, there is so much chaos inside, we freak out for any chance to get busy again.  We crave the solitude but then are not sure how to handle all the noise that arises when we stop going and going.  It isn't the peace we imagined, so we jump back into the fray not really rested, but not knowing if non-circumstantial peace is even possible.

For this edition of Five Minute Friday, I wrote how we have to be intentional about connecting with people even though with how easy technology makes it to be connected to people near or on the other side of the globe.

And as I continued to ponder the idea.

The Holy Spirit dwells in us.  How much easier can it get to connect with God?

And yet it takes such intentionality to actually connect and commune with with God.

I don't know if that thought strikes you like it just did me.

To get to that quiet place, I first have let the inner chaos out.  To let God at what has crowded into the place where connecting with Him is like breathing in and out.  But I make the choice.  Yes, God made it so easy, but I have to choose to open my mouth and communicate and connect with God.

I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.

Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

The glory that you have given me I have given to them, that they may be one even as we are one,  I in them and you in me, that they may become perfectly one, so that the world may know that you sent me and loved them even as you loved me.

Connecting Intentionally

Five Minute Friday with the Gypsy Mama.  Five minutes of unedited writing.  Ready, set...

GO

In the age of skype, high speed internet, smart phones, easy international air travel and mobile everything...It can be so easy to get and to stay connected with people all over the world.

Then again do I miss actually connecting with people.

I'm no judge. Having lived overseas for a year myself, I know how vital technology is to staying connected with people back home.

In the past, going to a different continent meant possibly never seeing that person ever again.  Now all that is required is a computer and an internet connection.

At the heart of things though, is intention.  Friends have moved all over the world and all over the country.  All the technology in the world can't keep us connected if we don't use it.  So while clearing junk out of my email inbox, actually writing that email I intended, to skipping a cup of coffee everyday so I can save for that plane ticket.

STOP

A Year = Only the Beginning

Expectations accompany a new year, full or promises.  I held on to multiplying expectations of this year of Beloved.  More than I realized.

For everything I've learned, experienced, wrestled with this year...

...I expected to feel more differently than I do.

And possibly the lull that has come at the end of this year due to transitioning back the the States from Korea has me feeling a little isolated and a little less able to feel the love.

Again I get quiet.  I type and catch the sight of the ring on my finger.

I AM MY BELOVED'S....MY BELOVED IS MINE

All this year, God has been giving me pieces of what Beloved is: Authority, Calling, Repentance, Beauty, Watching, Being Seen, and mostly Being.

I'm still putting pieces together.  I just want to feel like I get it.  That it is ingrained in my soul permanently.  Who doesn't want that kind of love?  That always assures.

Yet it is here, with my doubts, fears, and hiding, that God does this incredible thing:

He never stops loving me.


He never stops fighting for me.


He never stops pursuing my heart.


He never stops speaking the depths of His love to me.

Beloved doesn't end as the new year comes.  Because God has been speaking this to me for years and will continue with every breath I continue to take.  Beloved goes with me forward because it is the core of my identity.  It's also something I need to hear and be reminded of by Jesus every day. (It's also what Satan attacks)

So I look forward to 2012 carrying both Beloved and Courage with me as I go into the year of ________ (Coming soon)

Missing Shades

GO

How I wish things were black and white...or maybe I really don't.  This isn't about shades of grey but actually the vivid colors that bring the joy.

The circumstances that should be straight forward and in a rush, you hope go off without a glitch.  Except they don't.  There are delays, complications, incoviences.  But with each passing second a new brush stroke goes on the canvas.  The master artist continues His work.

The people you want to just be normal.  What is normal anyway?  Who among us isn't complicated? Or colorful?  Or a tad crazy?  Again, each person was molded by the Potter and then became a vessel for color to the world.  We need them.

STOP

Not bad for 6am.  Join me and others over at the gypsymama for five minutes of unedited writing.